It always seems that I’m too
young
And growing up it takes so long
I never will grow up
I just get older year by year
Until I die, that’s what I fear
Yet never growing up
So slow, so stupid and naive
And no more eager to achieve
This is a rotten life
Mere contradictions there in me
I wonder if I’ll ever be
A truly happy wife
(17 aastat hiljem)
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to see you every single day
and listen to the things you say
i couldn’t but endure it
’twas all because i knew how good
you really were, i understood
i’m young, i couldn’t bear it
to make me hate you – where’s the sense
and why pretend indifference
to hurt me, yes, you’ve tried it
and now you want to compensate
for being cruel, but it’s too late
you’ve hurt me, why deny it
“you’re not like all the others who
dwell here on earth, below the moon”
i thought when i first saw you
so perfect - clever, handsome, kind
i for some time was just like blind
i couldn’t but adore you
oh, all those tears i’ve cried for you
and hours spent on thoughts of you
have they all been in vain?
life seemed so beautiful to me
because you were my life, you see
you drove me quite insane
the magic power you possessed
by which i deeply was impressed
tell me, did i create it?
and every time you looked at me
i understood whats “chemistry”
the way it’s now – i hate it
then suddenly all troubles came
my life – it was no more the same
i felt i couldn’t cope
oh, god, i wished to talk to you
i thought i might get help from you
but you, you robbed my hope
and after that i didn’t care
’bout anything, i had no fear
’twas all the same for me
the biggest part of me had died
somehow i felt i always lied
when someone talked to me
(sweet sixteen)
